This and That

It is Tuesday morning, and I feel like I've been in the middle of a tornado for the past couple of days. I sit here with knots in my stomach. I keep telling myself that the Lord is my strength. He is my Strong Tower. His grace is sufficient for me. Work is particularly stressful right now - with the uncertainty of what the future holds. On top of that the rumor mill is heavy at work and has Satan's claw prints all over it. I'm not going to defend myself - that is God's place. In the end the Truth will prevail, and most importantly, it is always God's will that I seek. It is my sincere and heartfelt prayer that at the end of this struggle I will know that what happens is God's plan for my life.

On to another topic - I had a great weekend. Chuck had a football game Friday night, so I went home from work and cleaned the house and did laundry. It was nice to have some down time and get my chores done so early in the weekend. Saturday morning I got up and felt the urge to rush around and grocery shop, etc. I get so used to being so busy during the week (and lately most weekends) that I think it is ingrained in me to rush around all weekend too. I decided that it would be nice just to spend a day doing absolutely nothing (something I NEVER do). I grabbed a book that I had picked up at Sam's Club - "Found Love in Maiden, NC". I sat in the recliner and grabbed a nice, fuzzy blanket and read the entire day. I finished the book, and it was so good. It was a Christian fiction novel...the first one that I had ever read. I loved it. After I finished reading the book, I heard that still, small voice tell me "I am in everything". I felt so close to Jesus at that moment. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day.

Now it is Wednesday night, and I am finally getting back to this post. It was an unbelievably hard day at work - more of the same stuff. I finally felt peace at the end of the day...I hope and pray that feeling of peace continues. It is imperative right now as I find myself, yet again, at a transition in my life. My company is closing the doors and starting a new venture with a limited amount of resources from several entities combined - chances aren't looking too good for me for job retention. That isn't even the hardest part - I think the hardest part is watching my coworkers fending for themselves by throwing others under the bus in order to look good. It is disappointing and disheartening...and to say the least, it is very painful under those tires - which is where I seem to have found myself this week on a daily basis.

We'll see where this road ends...but I know that when one road ends, it is because God is leading us down another one, and I'll pick God's choice over mine any day - I know His choices are much better than mine!!